I am feeling better but still not 100%.  This semester is going to be busy with lots of studying. 

I am so torn...what am I supposed to do?

I think I may be going crazy and you would too if you were in my head.

i am sad.  no one has called...and it has been almost a week since my surgery.  im not doing very well.  i cry every day and i feel like i want to die.  thomas isnt even here - he left two days after i got out of the hospital and wont be back for who knows how long- he went to pick up an airplane.  i dont know if ill be able to go back to school on tuesday. 

I really want to magically wake up with the perfect body...I just want to be a lot more toned and I am definitely working on it.  I think my grades for this semester will be better than they have been in a loooong time.  Maybe even straight A's (if I'm lucky). 

This weekend was great.  Friday night I got spend time with my family and animals.  I love my apartment but I miss living at home where everywhere I turn there is a my dog or one of my many many cats.  Saturday night was great fun - Thomas and I hung out with Mitch and Eileen.  We went to Ruby Tuesday and then went back to Mitch's house which was extremely entertaining to say the very least.  They are fun to be around and to get... inebriated with. 

I fear that when I start working over break I won't get to hang out with people as much as I would like.  My dad wants me to work practically every waking moment and, frankly I am lazy also I value the few social relationships I have.  I hope he doesn' t work me too hard.